I was an athlete in high school – soccer, basketball, cheerleading and I had always benefited from an average frame. I also had a sweet tooth and no concept of eating clean. I also have a tendency to be on the extremes like eating way too much or eating way too little. I spend most of my youth, like most of us, swinging from one direction to the other. From a size 8 to a size 2. I know a size 8 is fine and it was. Like you I look back and think you always looked great why couldn’t you see that and why is it so hard for us to see ourselves in a positive light in the present.
My starts and stops on exercise continued after high school as did my love for fried foods and beer. I was having a good time but I just never really felt good in my skin. Every Monday was the same, I’m going to pull it together this week and a lot of times I would. I would struggle all week trying to keep calories down and get a few workouts in at the gym to hit Friday and destroy all the progress x2. This cycle repeated for 20 years. No joke.
My husband and I struggled for years with infertility. Clomid, IUI, acupuncture, teas, cleanses, you name it, I tried it. We finally moved to IVF and endured the 40+ shots a month I consider us the lucky ones. After two rounds we were blessed with 3 babes; our daughter Parker who is almost 9 and twins, Paige and Dempsey who are 7. We built an incredible family. The chaos of daily life and the constant undertone of “this is always all you wanted” propelled me into mom only mode. This, plus working a demanding 9-5 as a Marketing Executive was enough to take up every hour. And then the pandemic hit.
In some ways it was a blessing (in the beginning). Everything slowed down. I saw my kids. I didn’t have to rush every moment. But after a year of being mom, savior, cook, teacher, piano teacher, friend, nurse … I was so tired. I went from working out a few times a week to never. From wine on the weekends to every night. To tortured sleep and endless tasks. And it was like STOOOOOOP! What is happening here?
I was lost in days that blurred into one another filled with endless tasks serving others. I’m sure you can relate. I had no direction. No passion. No motivation.
Something needed to change.
But we were, and still are, in the middle of a pandemic I knew I was lucky to have the work I have earning an income at home so I wasn’t quitting my job. I love my husband and my kids lol so not that’s not changing. So what then?
Oh. That something that needed to change was me.
So what first? I landed on physical health mainly because I knew that at the end of the day this is something I had control of. I made the choice to have a glass (or 2) of wine every night, eat carbs for every meal, and pass on fruits and veggies like I was allergic. As much as I told myself it wasn’t my fault I felt tired, bloated, and lethargic most of the time … it was my fault. I 100% had control of that so that’s where I started. But as usual I go 120% in and decided that even though I had zero credibility being a health and fitness coach – the only way I was going to stay committed was if others needed me for their journeys as well.
I signed up to be a Beachbody Coach on December 20, 2020, ran a free group in January and never looked back. I wasn’t one of those coaches who someone asked 4x before she said yes. Nobody asked me. I was kind of in this whole thing alone, but as an introvert and sometimes loaner that worked for me. I was able to think and learn at my own pace which I also realized gave me the feeling of excitement and joy vs. anxiety. Anxiety … the feeling I have almost every moment at my corporate 9-5. I like will never measure up. Like 15 years in I have no idea what I’m doing and someone is going to find out at any moment. Hard core imposter syndrome ummkay.
So anyway, I dove in andI started with 21 Day Fix and then went to 9 Week Control Freak. Autumn is my spirit animal. I drank the shakes and started using Energize. I got up every day and did my workout. I ate simple Fixate approved meals. I lost 10 pounds. You guys … ten pounds I had been “trying” to lose since I knew what it meant to want to lose a few pounds. I got abs. I got freakin motivated! I realized we get one trip – make it count!!! I got busy mamas excited about exercise again! Is it too much to say this has changed my whole life?
MY WHOLE LIFE!
Now I get up and journal, affirm my self-worth just for being me, read personal development, workout, get women started on their own journey and am building a team of coaches myself. Because here’s the thing … if I can lose the 10 pounds that’s been hanging around with me for 20+ years just by following the simple steps that were laid out for me you know I’m going to build a HUGE business by following the simple steps that are laid out for me.
Is this all easy? Oh hell no…it’s not easy. Is it simple? Yes, it’s simple. Is it crazy, probably but is it super fun – you betch!! I’m literally the most excited, passionate, confident, motivated I’ve EVER BEEN! I still have lots of work to do because honestly I was pretty low and my vision and goals are so high now there are days I feel defeated and that I can never make them happen. Other mornings I wake up thinking girl, you’re already there. Life is a trip, isn’t it? I’m just so thankful I found something that makes Life fun again.
Welcome to my story where I’ll take you on my journey to be in the best shape of my life – mentally and physically while I build a huge business and raise my family … all while working a demanding 9-5!
Do you think I can do it? You do? Thank you! So wait … if I can do then why can’t you?
WHY NOT YOU?!?!
Let’s root for each other OK?!?
Thanks for being here – I can’t wait to share more about this crazy, fun life and how I’m building the life of our dreams one little baby step at a time!
